...no youd never ask no one for life...

+ ATTN: jenna has a new freakin livejournal +

2004-06-11T03:15:58Z

So i decided since its summer i need a new livejournal and im sick of my old one. its all messy. sooo.. heres my new one. dont be lazy and not add me. just do it nigger. the end.

_joinmeindeath_

♥

gorgeous_gashes @ 2004-06-10T14:13:00

2004-06-10T21:14:14Z

im thinking of making a new livejournal user name.. hmm.. what should it be?? well.. i will tell u when im ready! muhahaha... so today was the last freakin dinkin day of school. yay! i feel so free. i was really mad because first mr long threw away all my art work from his class and so im like well at least all my faverite ones are up in mr yepez's class.. so me and courtney go and he has a class so he like does some wave thing and i think that means like bye come back later... so we leave and then i come back today before school and he said he thru them away because i said i didnt want them. I WAS GOING TO CRY.. like u dont even know how bad i loved my artwork in his class. so i was all sad the whole mornign but then i went to mr bobsmellys class and we did nothing. every one was laying on eachother and sleeping. and iwas drawing on the board. cuz i have no friends in that class and i didnt bring any thing. sooo then some guy finished playing with his cool nintendo game boy and it was like the old paddles. and i asked if i could play...and i played mario and then hes like oh you want zelda!? and i was soo happy. i miss nintendo. lol. soo i did that for a couple hours and then me and trevor walked to B&Js and ate and then we hung out with andrew and his brother for a bit it was fun. andrew and trevor make a cute couple. its nice to see trevor happy.. and have some one who feels the way about him as he does. soo .. any ways.. im at trevors. i want to go to KAOS and get some stickers for my car (the pimp mobile) hahaha.. even thow i dont have my lisence. but im getting over excited. i want to pick up my pictures from sams club tomorrow.. i hope there done. lalala.... tomorrow is the carnival... im so excited to see my love. i hope we dont see any biotches that try to cause drama. and i hope we have a perfect time. umm........ i painted my nails neon pink and im really sad cuz i dont know how to paint nails and they look sad. ummm sooo....... well. im done now ... off to think about my lj name. :)

peace out nigga

♥

hehehehehehe

2004-06-09T20:17:06Z

I AM AT TREVORS> WE ARE IN THE SAME ROOM> ON DIFFERENT COMPUTERS> HES ON HIS NEW COOL LAB TOP WHILE IM ON THE CRAPOLA SLOW ONE>

ARENT YOU JEALOUS?

OKAY SO ITS HOT> AND IM GONNA GO BECAUSE WELL> BECAUSE>>> HMMM>>> I DONNO> TONIGHT CONSISTS OF : CLEANING MY ROOM. MAKING THINGS. DOING MY FOTO ALUM. and... ILL SQUEEZE IN MASTERBATING SOMEWHERE.... hahahhahahahaha

gorgeous_gashes @ 2004-06-08T21:58:00

2004-06-09T05:03:51Z

gorgeous_gashes @ 2004-06-08T19:46:00

2004-06-09T02:51:29Z

today well. it was nice out. and um yeah. sooo hmm, had art and english. did nothing. then went to fashion Q to buy clothes for a job if i ever get one. and then i went home and then got picked up from bobs driving school and went driving .. it was sooo scary. but i got used to it. and i was a pro. :) cant wait till october so i get my lisence and i could finally see my girlfriend and actually take her places. :) soo.. ummm after that i went to trevors because i didnt knw what time promotion was over so i didnt think it was still going. so i went there and we were bored. so. we decided to be rebels and take the car out for a joy ride.. hehehehe.. fun. soo then we came back and his parents came home and we went to drop off something for devon at royal oak and then we ate and then took pictures and then i went home now im off to courts...

LOVE JENNA

gorgeous_gashes @ 2004-06-07T21:15:00

2004-06-08T04:16:51Z

1. PICK SOME OF YOUR SCARS OUT, NOW HOW DID YOU GET EM?

*I was playing with my friends knife and I said this isnt sharp! and hes all yes it is! and I argued and im like watch! and I cut my self on my hand and nothing happens.. and im like see! and then all of a sudden blood starts gushing out..

*this scar on my forehead is from 3rd grade. I was playing barbies with lindsay lamb and I bent down to pick one up and I came back up and cracked my head open on the tv.

2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM? posters, paintings, pictures, naked girls, art

3. WOULD YOU RATHER PLAY FOOTBALL OR WATCH IT? watch

4. WHAT SPORT WOULD YOU SAY YOU ARE BEST AT? basketball

5. WHAT WAS YOUR WORST NIGHTMARE? I cant recall because I would have nightmares continually thru the night because it’s a genetic thing. but um I got medicine for those suckers and now I don’t have any dreams. thank the lord.
6. HOW DO YOU EXERCISE? I don't.

7. APPLES OR ORANGES? Oranges.

8. GRAPES OR WATERMELON? Grapes.

9. WOLVES OR TIGERS? tigers

10. WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO? anything.

11. HAVE YOU EVER WRITTEN POETRY? yesiree

13. DO YOU REMEMBER BIRTHDAYS? yes. I would NEVER forget my friends birthday.

14. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN? No.

15. DO YOU HAVE A BIRTHMARK, WHERE? yes. on my eye brow

16. WOULD YOU CALL YOURSELF A ROMANTIC PERSON? im not romantic but I like romance

17. WHAT IS THE WEIRDEST THING YOU HAVE EVER DONE? ummm I donno.

18. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU STARTED FILLING THIS IN? talking to janell. like right now.

19. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE GUM? polar ice

20. FAVORITE CHOCOLATE? dove

21. FAVORITE CANDY (NON CHOCOLATE)? I don’t know

22. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA ICE-CREAM? chocholate

23. DO YOU OWN ANYTHING LEATHER? ummm these hot crochless pants.. hahah jk. no oh wait a couch.

24. FAVORITE COLOGNE? romance

25. FAVORITE PERFUME? romance

26. DO YOU OWN AN INSTRUMENT? piano haha

27. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ON SOMEONE (OPPOSITE SEX)? shoes. hair

28. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SMELL? my blanket

29. FAVORITE SOUND THAT YOU HEAR OFTEN? ummm... I donno I can tell u the worst sound.. MY DAD IN THE MORNING COMING IN MY ROOM TO WAKE ME UP WITH HIS SPOON HITTING THE SIDES OF HIS YOGURT, EEEWWW...

30. WHAT ARE YOU THINKING RIGHT NOW? janell

31. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC? YESSSSSS

32. COULD YOU EVER SEE YOURSELF MOVING FROM WHERE YOU ARE NOW? YES ASAP

33. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE DISNEY MOVIE OF ALL TIME? pinocchio

34. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SONG OF ALL TIME? louie louie

35. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE COLOR WHEN YOU WERE TEN? orange has always been my fave color. except for now its green AND orange haha

36. WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR EYES? brown/green

37: DO YOU OR HAVE YOU EVER SLEPT WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL? only bettie

38. IF SO WHAT WAS/IS IT'S NAME? I just told u

39. WHO WAS YOUR FIRST CRUSH WHEN YOU WERE LITTLE? garett wilcox.. we were lovers.. and best friends hehehehhe how adorable.

40. MOST EMBARRASSING CHILDHOOD MOMENT? I donno

41. WHAT KIND OF HAIR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?: long dark hair, or styled short and cute.

42. WHAT ATTRACTS YOU TO SOMEONE OF THE OPPOSITE SEX? class. humor. personality.

43. WHO OUT OF YOUR FRIENDS (SAME SEX) HAVE YOU KNOWN THE LONGEST? COURTNEY LEIGH HOLLAND

44. NOW THE OPPOSITE? I really donno. all the guys I hang out with right now I met this year... Id have to think hard about that.
45. WHAT MONTH IS THEIR BIRTHDAY IN AND WHATS THEIR MIDDLE NAME? APRIL 22ND 1987 LEIGH.

46. SUNRISE OR SUNSET? sunrise

47. WHERE AT? I don’t care

48. (FOR THE LADIES, BE TRUTHFUL) WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF BEING PROPOSED TO AT? ummm any where

49. (NOW THE GENTLEMEN, BE TRUTHFUL) WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF PROPOSING?

50. WHAT ARE YOUR FIVE FAVORITE MOVIES OF THIS YEAR? .........

57. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF GOING FOR YOUR HONEYMOON. I donno...

58. CAN YOU PLAY AN INSTRUMENT? no

59. DO YOU SPEAK A DIFFERENT LANGUAGE? no

60. WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE EVER GAVE YOU (OF THE OPPOSITE SEX)? I really don’t know

61. WHO IS YOUR FAVORITE SINGER? christina aguilera

62. FAVORITE BAND(s)? hatebreed. one line drawing, postal service, dashboard confessional

63. WHAT KIND OF BOOKS DO YOU LIKE TO READ? none
64. DO YOU LIKE POETRY? Yes.

65. HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR COFFEE? black, or with a little bit of milk

66. WHAT's your favorite PHRASE to use? ...

67. DRAGONS OR DINOSAURS? Dragons.

68. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING? Of course.

69. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU?cuddle
71. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED: 55

72. BLONDES REDHEADS OR BRUNETTES?: Brunettes.

73. WOULD YOU PREFER TO GO ICE SKATING OR ROLLER SKATING? neither

74. WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL OFTEN? probably trevor. I never use the fone thow... the fone = evil.

75. WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST? umm druggies, racism, prejidiced people, rude people, overly immature, mean people, people who don’t respect people, people who say mean things to innocent people. and telephones.

76. HAVE YOU EVER DONE A PRANK CALL? with courtney muhahaha we used to call peoples answering machines and say " hi this is ________ church of christ and we wanted to sing a prayer for ya'll today" (in a black voice) and we'd sing fake gospel songs on there machines until they ended. hahahhaa it was funny.

gorgeous_gashes @ 2004-06-07T20:06:00

2004-06-08T03:12:27Z

today was so beautiful.

except for the whole me feeling like i was dead the hole day..

so i go to skool to find out that mr long freakin thru out all the art worK! dang him!! i wanted mine. but oh well. :( sooo.. after school i went to trevors and we layed down for a bit.. then we went in the car and took pictures and stuff. it was normal day for us. but we both felt like shis. and we didnt wanna move. after that i came home took a shower and then my dad took me DRIVING. im a pro. ya!! hehehe.. soo then we went to susies and ate samwiches and then i came home and now im on here and my skin is burning. i wrote alot of evil poems today. and you cant see.. muahahahaha.....

chris from dashboard gives me the chills. mmmhmmm. yup.

ps. i cant wait till friday. to see my beautiful girlfriend. yahooo... its gonna be fun. double date.. mhmmm.. yehaw.

gorgeous_gashes @ 2004-06-06T23:00:00

2004-06-07T06:01:05Z

EDIT: 11:03 / janell. my padre made me go to sleep. lol. once again i dont get to say bye. goodnight love. byebye

waiting for the time to go pick up trevor

i made it pretty on the computer :)

thats all.

shit head

2004-06-07T05:33:47Z

oh yeah did i mention i love my girlfriend??

and ugh.. no one else comes close to her.. so go away.

..i got my finger on the trigger and your in my way....

2004-06-07T05:31:23Z

so. lets see. went to venice. had a good time. bought a painting. had some old black guy rub my butt. EEWWW... and um... yeah. so i went to trevors and his parents said they were going to mexico sooo he gets on the computer and starts looking at porn and im like i want to look at porn and we decide to split up so we dont have to ahem.. see eachother. well u know. so.. i go in to devs room and lock the door and like 5 minutes later i hear "trevor you are so gullible". and its them and they are home. so i jump up and turn off the porn and trevor runs to the computer (cuz he went pee first) and it was the scariest thing ever. lol. but any ways. so we went swimming. and then i went home and now im here. and i smell like trevors cat. eew. im so taking a shower. and yeah. so today was pretty good. im glad i went to venice = the happiest place on earth. i did have some mood swings but i dont care. fuck fuck fuck. so yeah im still pissed and sad and everything. and im not a happy camper. and yeah. so the only reason im going to charter oak next year is janell and devin eden. dont think its because of you because.. its not. i still am leaving right after high school and moving to the middle of nowhere and excluding my self from the fuckin world. the end.

oh yeah:

"Vindicated"

Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine ahead has caught my eye
And roped me in so mesmerizing
It's so hypnotizing
I am captivated
I am

Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
Swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now
The things you swore you saw yourself

So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intention
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me so
Isolated so
Motivated I am
Certain now that I am

Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
Swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now
The things you swore you saw yourself

So tired of the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment for forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'd be in
Too deep now to ever swim
Against the current

So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip away

Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
Swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now
The things you swore you saw yourself

My hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption

"Saying Goodbye"

She kisses everyone goodbye
And waves her middle finger high
They're never gonna mess with her again
The drama queen is seventeen
And sleeping with boys for free
She's got a reputation of being easy

Everytime they put her down, she makes a fist and the tears roll down
She packs her bags and plans to run away

She's saying goodbye and leaving tonight
She's wasted all her lonely tear drops
She's saying goodbye and leaving tonight
She's used up all her lonely tear drops now

She thinks about herself and cares about nobody else
because the only friends she has all put her down
They hate her when she's beautiful and even more when she's a fool
They talk behind her back when it's her birthday

Everytime they put her down, she makes a fist and the tears roll down
She packs her bags and plans to run away
And everytime she makes a friend, the vicous cycle starts again
She's never, ever, ever looking back

She's saying goodbye and leaving tonight
She's wasted all her lonely tear drops
She's saying goodbye and leaving tonight
She's used up all her lonely tear drops now

She's saying goodbye, she's wasted all her loney tear drops
Saying goodbye, she's used up all her lonely tear drops now

Everytime they put her down, she makes a fist and the tears roll down
She packs her bags and plans to run away from here
And everytime she makes a friend, the vicous cycle starts again
She's never, ever, ever looking back

She's saying goodbye and leaving tonight
She's wasted all her lonely tear drops
She's saying goodbye and leaving tonight
She's used up all her lonely tear drops now

She's wasted all her lonely tear drops now

...Mirrors on the ceiling,
The pink champagne on ice
And she said 'We are all just prisoners here, of our own device'
And in the master's chambers,
They gathered for the feast
They stab it with their steely knives,
But they just can't kill the beast

Last thing I remember, I was
Running for the door
I had to find the passage back
To the place I was before
'Relax,' said the night man,
We are programmed to receive.
You can checkout any time you like,
but you can never leave!

gorgeous_gashes @ 2004-06-05T23:44:00

2004-06-06T06:45:41Z

talking to devin about life. he tells me to stop caring about people. and to be more selfish. HOW THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO BE MORE SELFISH?.. its weird. how i care about people soooo much. how i would do any thing for ANYONE. for a stranger. for an animal. for a person who had one day to live, if they were gonna get shot a day early, i would still jump in front of that fucken bullet. i care about people more than any one i know. and i hate my self. hmm.. and i dont understand. im so confused. im sooo confused. damnit. im so sorry janell. i cant love my self. im sorry that you love the things about me that i hate. im sorry that i cant be a happy, perfect girlfriend. im seriously sorry. see i dont want to be like this. if i could i would be happy. have friends. have a nice little life. and NOT BE SO EMO. but i am. im always depressed and i cant fuckin do a damn thing about it. because my life... it.. SUCKS. i love you janell. i love you all. and i cant stand the fact that i think its best to leave this place. i dont know. i am just confused. i am just a little thing on this HUMUNGOUS earth. no one knows what that hell were doing on here. were just here because we have to be.. what else is gonna happen? what else is there to do? i really dont care if this doesnt make sence, its just a hole bunch of big toughts clumped together. heres a comment to alan from my comment page on my last entry: no alan its not you. its everything. for like 5 years i have been completely miserable. and i decided its best for me to stay away from people. because im jealous of every one, i have to have every ones attention, and approval and love. or else i am miserable. it sounds so selfish, but becasue of how i grew up and what i went thru, thats how i survive. and when people hurt me, i get so low. that i want to kill my self. ... the WHOLE entire night last night. u wanna know what i thought of .. derek. honestly. i felt like i was his mom. i was so worried about him. that had nothing to do with what u said lol. but. u dont know what ive been thru. and i need to start over. i need to leave every thing behind and i donno be a nun or something. lol. i hate my self so much. i hate the person i am. and what i look like, how i act, and everything. i hate everything. every thing. but i love every one. I love you. and its so confusing. but. i know its best for me to leave. i dont want it to be a selfish decision. but it is. because i know people really do care about me. but i know that there just gonna hurt me. and i cant live one more fuckin day being miserable. not a nother mother fuckin day

gorgeous_gashes @ 2004-06-05T22:02:00

2004-06-06T05:05:25Z

i cant even explain how alone and upset i am. today i woke up at 130 and went to trevors and watched boogie nights. i took the cake they made me and we had a real birthday singing and blowing out of a candle. only they made my wish and i didnt eat the cake. if i woulda eatin it, it woulda been puked up every where. so after that i went to work and then came home and slept until 8:00..

so i was at dinner with my dad and i decided next year im going to home school.

im moving out asap and excluding my self from the any one and every one. dont try to stop me. my mind is made up.

fuck you all.

gorgeous_gashes @ 2004-06-05T21:30:00

2004-06-06T04:41:12Z

....Emptiness is loneliness, and loneliness is cleanliness
And cleanliness is godliness, and god is empty just like me
Intoxicated with the madness, I'm in love with my sadness
Bullshit fakers, enchanted kingdoms
The fasion victims chew their charcoal teeth
I never let on, that I was on a sinking ship
I never let on that I was down
You blame yourself, for what you can't ignore
You blame yourself for wanting more....

i. just. love. how. the. world. has. no. answers. and. how. we. are. all. screwed.
i absolutely adore the fact that my two best friends think its amusing to sit in the car for 45 minutes together at my birthday party.
i think its cool that my friends can only have fun if they are intoxicated.
it really makes me smile to think my friends show up for 5 minutes to say happy birthday on my birthday party they were supposed to be at.
its so awesome the way that im always there for you and you cant even show up to my freakin party.
its amazing how good you can make me feel.
i just love the way you screw me over.
i love the way my mom wasted so much money on me for nothing.
i love the way that i cried in the bathroom at my birthday party.
i love the way that some girl down the street thinks me being sad was because of her.
i love the way that my mom thought i was trying to kill my self when i went to change in the bathroom.
i cant explain how happy it makes me feel to see my friends fucked up.
i love it when i am so depressed i start to puke when i eat an m & m.
but most of all... i am so fuckin excited that i am completely alone.

highlight of my party: me ashley and kristen playing LIFE in my room at 2:00 am.

gorgeous_gashes @ 2004-06-04T17:29:00

2004-06-05T00:30:51Z

well. lets just say. i have cramps. n its not pleasant..

today was the last school day for the seniors. how exciting/sad. ouch. help im in pain. ahhh!!!

ughmmm.... need to straighten my hair. adios...

nigglets.

JENNA

lalala

2004-06-04T05:25:04Z

so. well. today. um. hmm.. okay. im so tired.. well um.. i went to schooooooollll.. and then i got checked out cuz i felt like SHISHCABOBS. and then i went to sleep and i woke up and then went to dezz's then we went to the yearbook party and then we went to the park and then i went home and then worked on my essay and now im here and i am itchy. and devin just called me to tell me to go on line and get melissa off so he can call her. and courtney saw devin heder today at the mall and she said hes all big and looks like a skater now and he was all shaky and stuff. hmm.. i miss that fella. <3

oh by the way i was hosing down some chairs and um.. these GIANT JUMPING cocroaches came flying out at me. yup and i was screaming and running. it was scary. it reminded me of victor and how he told me he has flying cocroaches in hawaii. eeeewww......... VICTOR AM I GOING TO SEE YOU THIS MONTH!!!!! ???? !! ????? huh nigga? i better.

i have the best girlfriend ever .. beat that.

<3

2004-06-03T06:32:13Z

i had the best birthday ive had in a long time. i got alot of great junk. i got to spend time with my family, my friends and my girlfriend. :) i felt really good. :) so any ways... today me and my mom went and got a cake and then my family came over and we ate. and then trevor came over and we had cake. and then we went bowling. but right when we stepped in trevor said he decided he didnt wanna go. and i said good because i want to see janell. so we went to the skate park. and i felt really dumb because i didnt feel good so i was ignoring every one. but i went alone with janell and everything was fine. im glad she understood... so any ways. tonight was really great. even thow janell made fun of my "beanerish sandals" and my giant camera. and my fingers how only one goes down when we hold hands. and such. but its okay because i love that girl. shes the best.

ps. thankx to........ alan and kristen and trevor and courtney for my hot birthday presents. you guys are the bestest. :D

me and my girlfriend talking to tiffany...

she so shoulda shut up. it was not the right things to say hahha.

My cool cake

trevor on the fone with his lover

HI im ugly

Me trevor and devon playing with the liters. haha

My bday presents

George

Kermy says bye bye !!!

happy birthday to me..

2004-06-02T22:31:28Z

todays my birthday. i wake up to my sister laying on top of me she says.. i have a early present for u. and i look and its piece of her blanky that fell off and she ties it to my blanky. and my mom called it a blood transfusion which made me laugh. those of u who know, my blanket is um.... well. a knott. and its falling apart and it will no longer be with us after a while. but we wont talk about it. :(... so. yeah. i was happy. so i get outa bed and i walk into the kitchen to see my mom standing there butt naked. (which is a normal thing in my family) so. any ways. my mom goes ready 1 2 3 and my mom dad and sister all sing me happy birthday and many more. so i take a shower and what not and go to school. not to mention COURTNEY kept me up all dang night.. calling every 3 minutes saying... 2 hours and 10 minutes till your birthday 2 hours and 7 minutes 2 hours and 5 minutes 2 hours and 1 minute and what not. all the way till i finally went to sleep. i woke up and there was a message on my fone saying 51 minutes till your birthday! im thinking she got tired of calling so she didnt make it all the way till 12. :) but n e ways.. i got alot of cool stuff today. ill post pics of every thing after tonight once im thru with all my presents. :) my sisters ferrit george is here to visit and it smells.

the end.

heres some pics from monday and sunday.

scottish festival

racism

2004-06-02T02:54:12Z

click here you know you wanna know facts about racism. go ahead. ... .

In the play A Raisin in the Sun by Lorraine Hansberry, a poor Black family living in Chicago struggles through the rough times of racism, unemployment, poverty and crime. Within the play, racism occurs when the family has trouble finding decent jobs. It will be proven that racism is still occurring today, and is likely to result into poverty and crime

A.) The first topic is unemployment.

“Half of all black men in New York City can’t find a job…”

“Racism, not criminal records, explains the high unemployment rate for black men today.”

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funny funny

2004-06-02T00:48:09Z

ME AND DEVIN

FearlessISnaked: WOO!
FearlessISnaked: thats cool
BittenAtMoonlite: hhehe
BittenAtMoonlite: so my bday is tomorrow and u havent gone shoppping!
FearlessISnaked: Yeah so are you excited to be 17!?!
BittenAtMoonlite: im so mad at u
BittenAtMoonlite: lol
BittenAtMoonlite: yes hahah
FearlessISnaked: how do you know i havnt gone shopping?
BittenAtMoonlite: i only watch u!
BittenAtMoonlite: duh
FearlessISnaked: oh ok
FearlessISnaked: you caught me
BittenAtMoonlite: hehe
BittenAtMoonlite: its okay a check will do
BittenAtMoonlite: hahahah
FearlessISnaked: good one ;-)
BittenAtMoonlite: so my head hurts
FearlessISnaked: my penis hurts!
FearlessISnaked: jk
BittenAtMoonlite: haha
FearlessISnaked: it feels fine
BittenAtMoonlite: i was gonna tell u to get ky personal lotion
BittenAtMoonlite: hahaha
FearlessISnaked: oh geez sounds fancy
BittenAtMoonlite: lol
FearlessISnaked: haha
BittenAtMoonlite: it tingles and gets all hot. i saw the commercial
BittenAtMoonlite: ehe
FearlessISnaked: hahahha
FearlessISnaked: hahhahha
FearlessISnaked: thats cool

BittenAtMoonlite: yup. yup.
BittenAtMoonlite: whats your essay on ?
FearlessISnaked: Brown v. board of education and unequal schooling for niggers
BittenAtMoonlite: man
BittenAtMoonlite: no one has racism
BittenAtMoonlite: mines hard
FearlessISnaked: Yeah so I have to go do homework... my dad kicking me off comp...if melissa gets online tell her I love her!
FearlessISnaked: I will talk to you later!
BittenAtMoonlite: will do! ttyl byebye
FearlessISnaked: bye!8-)

i got lazy and didnt wanna make them colored like the first one so deal with it!!!

Me and LIZ

BittenAtMoonlite: can u um ... not steal him for the hole lunch lol. its my bday tomorrow i need him too. lol.. u can come by the library and visit me :-)
liz n stuff: REALLY!
liz n stuff: it's your birthday!
liz n stuff: ahhhhhhhhh!
BittenAtMoonlite: yesss
liz n stuff: :-D
liz n stuff: awwwwwwwwww<3
BittenAtMoonlite: and hes already ditching it for james
BittenAtMoonlite: that bastard lol
liz n stuff: i know, bahaha.
BittenAtMoonlite: ttehehe
liz n stuff: turning 17?
liz n stuff: 16?
liz n stuff: haha
BittenAtMoonlite: 17
liz n stuff: ee!
BittenAtMoonlite: yay

Me and ALAN

Distillers29: DO WE GIVE U YOUR GIFT TOMM OR ON FRI
BittenAtMoonlite: tomorrow :-)
Distillers29: OK-D-RADIE
BittenAtMoonlite: hehe
Distillers29: YOULL NEVER GUESS WHAT I GOT U
BittenAtMoonlite: a car?
BittenAtMoonlite: hehe
Distillers29: I MENT NEVER GUESS AS IN DONT DO IT
BittenAtMoonlite: ooh hehe
BittenAtMoonlite: =-O
Distillers29: YES

Me and Janell

BittenAtMoonlite: like did u see me get a new piece of gum during the movie?
BittenAtMoonlite: lol
ca is exxx: yes
ca is exxx: well
ca is exxx: i heard you
BittenAtMoonlite: hahaha
ca is exxx: and was there a reason?
BittenAtMoonlite: because my old piece tasted nasty. and i thought wed kiss sooner or later and i didnt want a nasty piece in there
ca is exxx: pft
BittenAtMoonlite: lol
ca is exxx: now imagine if i didnt kiss you
BittenAtMoonlite: haha
ca is exxx: then it wouldve been a waste of gum
BittenAtMoonlite: well i go thru a pack a dau
BittenAtMoonlite: *day
BittenAtMoonlite: :-D
ca is exxx: psh
ca is exxx: so who else do you kiss?
BittenAtMoonlite: do i? or have i"?
ca is exxx: well
ca is exxx: i mean, you go through a pack a day
ca is exxx: so im just wondering
BittenAtMoonlite: ohhhhh lol
BittenAtMoonlite: im just addicted. and i always bring two packs because i give it out like water. every one calls me the gum lady
ca is exxx: you expect me to believe that?
BittenAtMoonlite: today i went thru a whole pack in 2nd period
BittenAtMoonlite: hehe yeah!
BittenAtMoonlite: okay im lying i hate gum and i never have it
BittenAtMoonlite: or give it away

wanna know something?

2004-06-02T00:16:11Z

my BIRTHDAY is tomorrow!!!!

arent you excited? YOU KNOW WHAT REALLY BUGS?? the fact that theres no pink on the colors for this! gosh. eewww.. lol. so any who. today well i went to school n i felt like crap all day. i was all clammy and yucky. so the first thing i do when i get home is sleep. and then i wake up and i get the soda my mommy brought me from sams club and i go online. :) so yeah.. today was funny. every one knew about me and janell. okay well alot of people. and like WES came up to me all excited and was like "EEEEEEEEE!!!" and im like "what????" and hes like "congratulations!!!!" and im like "okay???????" him: "your with janell!! i dont know her but shes cool and im excited!!" it was funny.. i so sounded like a valley girl right now.... so. um. well. nothing to say. me and janell are talking about the kiss. hehe. which i was like dying in. i thought my heart ploped to the floor and i couldnt breath i was gonna die. it was wonderful. <3

my mom yelled at me about NOT CLEANING THE BATHROOM LAST WEEKEND. and i so did! and shes like theres a pill on the counter i put there so u musta not have wiped the counters off. and im like well u know what i cleaned it so that pill wasnt there u probably put it there this week and thought it was last week because ur old and so there because i cleaned it and im not cleaning it again! // yes. thats all.

tonight. tonight.

2004-06-01T07:17:25Z

so. welp. tonight. it was interesting in the beginning. i so thought i was doomed. there was awkard silence for janell. not for me because i dont mind silence, but, i thought she totally hated me. so. any ways. we go in the movie and its totally BORING in the beginning and we are just siting there and i keep saying itll get better. (i thought it did but she didnt) well any ways. about half way thru we started holding hands. n me being a chicken didnt do any thing else. and so.. um at the very end of the movie she hints out for me to kiss her but im too scared so like 5 seconds later she goes for it. and like im freakin out because im scared hehe. but after the movie we go out side and go for a walk behind the movies and we stop and talk and kiss and talk and kiss some more. and we decided to date. yup. i didnt believe her at first when she said she liked me because i thought the night was horrible on my side. but i began to believe her and so were dating. yay. im excited. shes really great. <3... even thow she wont let me meet her brother. ahem. any ways. im needing to do my homework. so adios.

boredom

2004-05-31T20:54:05Z

boredom. like. really. so i wake up at 6:00 because i cant sleep past then any more because im miserable during the night. i sleep on a corner curled up/ sprawled out at the end of my bed. upside down/slanted. and i have to get just right in the one position to even remotely get comfortable then it takes 7 hours to get to sleep. plus i have to pee 20 times durning the night. so. i get up go watch tv. (eeew) then i decide i wanna go to sleep until 10 so i can get up and get ready to go with janell at 12. so i finally get to sleep then wake up to the dorbell at 10:15 and i take a shower then get ready and its 11:45 and i call janell and WAKE HER UP.. so then im like get ready and call me. and so she calls me and says she doesnt wanna go to the mall cuz she doesnt wanna walk. so we decide on the movies. so i go to sleep and she calls me and asks whens my curfew. and so now i now we are totally going late and my day is going to be BORING. until then. so. today. basically sucks.

the end.

scottish festival.

2004-05-31T06:32:54Z

so.. today i went to the scottish festival ... it was fun. i got to see alot of people in kilts an what not. i took alot of pictures hehe.. i will post them tomorrow. so i came home and then me and ashley went to this party down the street where her parents were at. and then we left and went swimming at her house. and then we went back to my house and watched homeroom. that was the SADDEST FREAKIN MOVIE ever! EVER. like really. its so horrible. because its like. real. and.. yeah. it waz a tear jerker. so any ways im about to go to sleep cuz im really sun burned! oh no. and i donno why im going to sleep becuz of that but i am! okay! god! stop asking questions! Tomorrow = FUN DAY AT THE MALL WITH JANELL. and im not bailing again i promise! promise! i even washed clothes. cummon. so yeah. im out.. oh my god... me and ashley heard some man say "WELL THERES MORE THEN ONE WAY TO SKIN A CAT" on the fone .. and im all "ASHLEY!!! DID U HEAR THAT???" and shes like "OMG JENNA THATS AN EXPRESSION!" and i was all traumatized. yeah so i was scared. i thought i was gonna have to break out my kung fu on that cat killer. but luckily i saved my self from being embaressed and arrested.. hehe. jk. okay so im for sure leaving now. bye.

gorgeous_gashes @ 2004-05-28T22:37:00

2004-05-29T05:51:06Z

uno

dos

tres

quatro

cinco

......

hehehe

ive got my finger on the trigger and your in the way...

2004-05-29T05:32:27Z

so. today. i went to school. ditched 5th with dezz... went to the park.. no one was there. walked to diamond... then to mcdonalds... then back to the park. sat there for a while. layla and manuel were there and we bonded and then i called codi for a ride because i didnt wanna stay till 5:30 and i didnt wanna walk home. so she got me and then i went home and watched charmed like always... then i went to sleep and then i went to trevors and we sat in the car for like 10 hours. and i called ashley and janell. <3 im sorry janell my parents are nerds and told me today they got tickets on sunday for a stinkin scotish festival thing. ehehe. soo we are for sureeeee going MONDAY. or else i will jump off a bridge. : ) so any ways. im home. and ugh... im trying to upload the stinkin pics for nikki but its not working.. hmmm.... the end